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Oh my Juices! Friday, November 03, 2006 Oh hella juices..! Time really past by freaking fast with a capital F! My life is in a topsy-turvy these past few weeks.. Especially after i get back my results.. I realise who i am.. Reality hit me down to earth with a loud BANG! I THOUGHT i could do it.. I THOUGHT i could beat them.. THOUGHTS ARE JUST PLAIN WISHFUL THINKINGS.... Without actually proving it to people or most importantly yourself. Its pure Bullshit! =/ But think of it.. It felt so unfair.. I put in QUITE enough effort.. Compared to SOME... Yet those freaking SOME did fcuking better than me... Is heaven being unfair to me? Or is it just my bad luck? I dont know.. I seriously dont know... Im speechless.. I need my techno pills now.. But hey..! I brought it upon myself.. WHY DIDNT I STUDY HARDER? WHY DID I PLAY SO MUCH? WHY DIDNT I PAY ATTENTION MORE IN CLASS? WHY WHY WHY???? These questions keep running in my mind..until now! Even though im promoted to sec 4e.. I dont think my results reflect my true potential.. I could do much better... MUCH MUCH better than THIS....! I wished i have the brains like some of my classmates... But again! Thats wishful thinking... They were not born clever... They put in MUCH MORE effort than i did.. They paid attention in class MUCH MORE than i did... They played MUCH MORE less than i did... Haish... Im feeling fucking emo... Not because i want to... Its just that when i look at my results.. And compare it with last year which i ADMIT i was more clever... I feel like crying... Feel like tearing the result slip to a thousand pieces.. I dont wanna look at it... Dont wanna think bout it.. But i cant help it... Guilt and Regret gets the better of me... Till the next post.. Some soul-searching seriously need to be done... Bye my friends.. **im missing my TOKAZUKITATAKA badly** |
the writer Eighteen. Sisilaq & Syimah. <33 my sweet poison 
Since 280608. The best gift from God. Entered my life and changed it forever. Captured my heart and ran away with it.
My cure, my poison, my everything. I love her to bits and pieces.
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